Sunday, May 27, 2012


I really haven’t been procrastinating with the rewrites and queries on my book. The fact is, life rudely interfered with my writerly plans and when I finally sat back down at my keyboard, no words would come. No ideas, no juice.  Nothing.
Time was spent in a darkened room trying to force words to stop spinning, to just make sense: Jerty floy yobble, they replied.  The more I tried to focus, the thicker the mental fog became.
I watched The Tudors, Planet Earth, The Dog Whisperer.
Pifrog licky bocan.
I painted, photographed, listened to Stravinsky and frittered frantically.
Ert yaf oi twivvom.
I despaired.
Then, last week something  clicked.
The fog suddenly cleared and
I could focus.  Thoughts gelled.
When I sat down at the keyboard, writing happened. 
Words behaved themselves. 
What’s distressing is I can't think what opened the gates.
If I knew, I could do it next time life interrupts my writing.

Was a good night’s sleep?  No, I haven’t had a good night’s sleep in months.
Was it the insomnia?  Perhaps, though I doubt it.
Was it not thinking about the damned book for a while?  Giving it a rest?  Very likely.
Was it the painting, the photography or the frittering?  Who knows?     
Or, was it the dreaded muse?  The fabled, mythological writer’s muse?  The one you can’t control or depend on?
NO, no.  Definitely not.
I’m an atheist, I don’t believe in muses.
Muses shmuses.

Actually, there isn't a writer's muse per se, only poetry muses, so no wonder we get stuck without even a dedicated muse to inspire us!
As I can't figure it out, I'll just have to go through all the above again next time there's a major disruption.  Sigh.



John L said...

This same thing happens to me all the time. One day I will be completely stuck on all my projects, and the next day I will suddenly have more ideas than I can write down. And it doesn't seem to follow any pattern, making it hard to improve my productivity.

I've noticed that I often have ideas when I'm working on something different. But I still have to be thinking about the project in the back of your mind, I can't put it out of my head completely. I've been known to forget about projects when I'm not working on them. It's a never-ending battle.

Nora Lumiere said...

Yes, I've notced an increase in ideas on prject 1 when I switch to project 2. And I can usually get unstuck from minor blockages with a bit of art or frittering.
But when major life events happen, you have to drop everything to deal with them and when you come back to your keyboard, you're a slightly different person.
Perhaps that's why it takes a while to get back into the writing groove.